KATHMANDU: Actress Laxmi Bardewa, who began her journey from music videos and established herself in films, has appeared in several notable Nepali movies including Ghampani, Mr. Jholey, Bulbul, and Selfie King.

Her portrayal of a tempo driver in Bulbul received wide acclaim for its realism and depth.

Known for being selective in choosing her roles, Bardewa shared her Tihar experiences and fond childhood memories in a festive conversation with Nepal News for its Saturday special “Chhutti Ma.”

What childhood memories come to mind when you hear “Bhailini Aain Aangan” during Tihar?

“It reminds me of my childhood days — friends, walking around in the cold, and those sleepy, drowsy moments. That atmosphere still feels fresh in my memory.”

 Did you dance or sing while playing Bhailo?

“I wasn’t very good at dancing, and my friends didn’t know how to lead the songs either. So, my role was mostly to chant the verses while others joined in. It was always about enjoying the moment rather than performing perfectly.”

How much money did you earn playing Bhailo, and what did you do with it?

 “I don’t remember exactly how much we collected, but I used to bring the money home and give it to my mother. It wasn’t about the amount — it was about the fun of being part of the festival.”

Did you ever go to other houses to light firecrackers when you didn’t earn much?

“No, never! I was terrified of firecrackers. I never dared to play with them or do anything risky. That kind of mischievous stuff wasn’t for me.”

What’s your favorite part of Tihar?

“For me, Tihar means sel roti, deusi-bhailo, and colorful lights. The glow of the lights with the sound of deusi-bhailo creates that festive feeling — only then does it truly feel like Tihar has arrived. I equally enjoy the taste of sel roti and the energy of bhailo.”

Photo: Laxmi Bardewa performing Laxmi Puja, via her Facebook page

If you were to play Bhailo again, which five actresses would you choose for your team?

“I’d love to have Menuka Pradhan, Swastima Khadka, Sushma Niraula, Janvi Basnet, and Ashma Giri in my team. That would make it a truly fun and lively group.”

How do you see the difference between Bhailo then and now

“Back then, we played Bhailo purely for fun. It wasn’t about money — even a small contribution made us happy. Nowadays, it feels a bit commercial. People expect more, and it becomes awkward if they get less. Also, earlier we used to play all night long, but now there are time limits. The carefree fun of those days is missing.”